While the fact of all that has occurred has not really hit me, I’m making strides. Today I was on the phone with a woman and words rolled off my tongue before I could realize what I was saying and after it was said, they hung in the air like a dense morning fog.
I was asked “What service or charitable organizations do your find you align yourself with or would consider contributing to?” There was not even a breath between the question mark at the end of her sentence and my response.
“Well, since I am a cancer survivor, I would align myself with The American Cancer Society and more specifically, The Leukemia and Lymphoma Society.” Yes, I said it just like that, just as quickly as you read it. I’m a Cancer Survivor! That is the first time I think I can honestly say that I have said that in such a frank, quick manner.
After I said it, I don’t really remember what came next. I think she asked some more questions.
The next one I remember was, “If you have had one, what would you consider to be your greatest professional accomplishment?”
Again, I thought for a bout .5 seconds and responded. I told her about this summer and how I really feel like I have formed “my team” at work and that together, we accomplished amazing things. I told her about my award and then I told her that I helped lead all that while going through chemo and radiation treatments.
Again, it rolled off my tongue without even thinking.
So, I guess it is starting to hit me and to register. Somewhere deep inside, where my brain and my mouth work together (yeah, that is a scary thought) there is a consistent story forming. I’m sure in time it will only continue to change.
