Do we have a bad connection?

I’m walking through an AMAZING book with the girls in my
bible study/discipleship group.  We’ve
covered tons of topics and had to peel back some personal labels as we’ve
turned each page.  But, one thing that hit
me this morning as I was reading was a statement.

The chapter is titled “How do I connect” and I thought we
were going in a completely different direction. 
But Holley Gerth, the author of this AMAZING book, opened the chapter
with this –
“Imagine we’re on a
playground. One feisty little girl leads her peers in a spontaneous game.  Another talks quietly with a friend in the
sandbox.  Both seem utterly content in
the way they connect with others.  Then
we grow up and learn words like outgoing and shy, and the labels make us
squirm.”
And, I just stopped right there.  “The labels make us squirm.”  I know I wrote about labels a few weeks ago.  And, my discomfort with them, but my usual
nature to place them on myself.  
I spent a lot of time this summer reading about
introverts.  I’ve never been around
introverts until a couple squeezed in my life in the last 2 years.  Both of the ones that I’m trying to “learn”
are AMAZING people.  They are AMAZING
bosses.  They are AMAZING employees.  They work hard, they are conscientious, they
give every ounce of their energy in all that they do.  But, they are different than me.  And, that has perplexed me.  Its exceptionally hard when I’ve had a hard
day and want to hang out with them and they’ve had a hard day and want to
retreat and sit alone.  The “E” (big E)
in me just doesn’t get it. 
But, as I’ve read and keep absorbing (I could be a sponge
commercial right now!) I’m learning, that’s just who they are.  They connect and draw new energy in a
different way than me.
Different isn’t bad,
its just different.  And, different is
ok!
So, when I realized I was an extrovert and they were an
introvert, actually calling it what it was made us uncomfortable.  Suddenly I felt like I had to “know” them by
reading “about” them.  For me, it was a
big step of self-discovery.  As a grown
up and trying to connect to new people, I want to be cognizant of the people in
my life.  Understanding them is part of
extending the grace needed to make our friendship successful.  As a single grown-up, I’m discovering that’s
part of what makes a successful relationship; knowing the other person,
understanding where they come from and knowing that “retreat” and “energy” are
two words we may have to mutually define. 
The standard girl mind thinks retreating=mad, but retreating can
sometimes equal fullness or joy.  
As Holley ended the first section, she threw out these
thoughts.
“What if God made us
that way? What if He wired our social tendencies just like He did our strengths
and skills? Perhaps the way you connect with those around you is just as needed
as the other gifts in your life.  Maybe
its even at the heart of what makes you amazing.” 
You know, I may not get someone who doesn’t want to cram
every moment of every day with social interaction.  I mean seriously why would you choose to sit
at home alone instead of eating out with as many friends as possible?  But, the older I get the more personally
aware I become and I’m realizing that having these grounded people in my life
is a stabilizing force.  They center me,
ground me, and are the most amazing sounding boards for all the crazy!  I realize there is something to alone
time.  
The other thing I’ve thought about in this process is the
grace I need to give myself to be ok with how I’m wired.  I think when I know something else exists that
could be better, I want to become that. I’ve got to be ok with being the crazy
Extrovert.  I mean the last time I did a
Myers-Briggs test, I test 98% – E.  That’s
who I am.  I can’t change that.  I have to realize to an introvert, being that extreme
and “e” is overwhelming, but it’s also something they wish they had more
of.  Every part of my make-up,
personality, chemistry  cannot be
balanced and frankly, I don’t want to just sit on the fence of anything (yes,
that comes from how I’m wired too!). 
But, the grace I’ve got to give is that there is nothing wrong with me…its
just how I am.
We used to have a joke growing up that its “just how God
made me”.  Yes, we overused it, but I
think this is the perfect place.  I can
make myself better all day with articles, self-help books and life coaching
from great mentors.  I can try to
overcome or way find my short comings and I can improve them, but they will
never go away.  They too, are part of how
I’m wired.
So, the chapter, or section if you will, ended with a
challenge about “sight”.  Holley shared
this point – 
“When it comes to life, we all have vision that’s stronger
in particular areas.  Just as our eyes
can be nearsighted or farsighted, we see more clearly in certain social situations.  In this case, it doesn’t need to be correct –
it simply needs to be recognized and maximized. 
When you do so, your way of seeing the world can become a strength.”
How about we let the labels be something that connects us
instead of the thing that makes us different.

3 Replies to “Do we have a bad connection?”

  1. Awesome stuff, lady. I would love a recommendation of books about introverts you have learned from – especially if there is info about being in relationships with them. I struggle now and then with the one I am married to. 🙂

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